I'm really sorry guys. I didn't know.

I need one of you to punch me in the face hard enough to forget the last week happened.

Maybe Draco didn't notice. And maybe the Carrows didn't notice that I pretended not to notice that Parvati and Padma and Lavender were leaving and oh my god.

Nope nevermind need to destroy the evidence. It's bad enough they probably have polyjuice and could use that and it'll be EVEN WORSE if they find out I've mentioned it IN WRITING. Roger you're so STUPID.

AND NOW YOU'RE TALKING IN THIRD PERSON, STOP IT.

So um. Okay first this has to be Hufflepuff code of honour that it won't get out to anyone who can't be trusted. But the Carrows don't think that we've taken them enough pets and I don't know if they've figured out about us trading off or what but they were saying that if they don't bring them more than they're going to take the IS's pets too which kind of defeats the point. So me and someone else were talking about how maybe we could transfigure other things that aren't pets into temporary pets and we could take those to the Carrows. Although we'd definitely need people who could claim that the transfigured pets were theirs and act upset about them being taken so they don't just seem like random animals we found so that the Carrows get their emotions they want so they can feed off our tears or whatever it is they do.

Also if there's anyone else who has a pet that is now someone else's pet and could claim a fake pet you can definitely tell them but only if they won't tell the Carrows or the IS or anyone who could ruin everything.

Theodore's father knew my father. At least enough to know that I look like him. And he killed a person right there and we all saw it and that's apparently okay now and Goyle's killed someone too and we have CLASS with him. What if he kills someone here? What if that's what we're all expected to do at the end of the year? I can't KILL someone. I'll go to hell or'll burst into flames the second I walk into grandmum's house and THEN will go to hell.

I think it's kind of weird that I'm sort of getting good at all this. Maybe other people are secretly good at it too but they don't want to SEEM like they are so they're pretending to be bad at it.

Except I don't want to do that because the Carrows will probably give me magically induced diarea or something in front of the entire school during this stupid play thing they're having us do. I can't act, I'll puke.

Hey I have a suggested or an idea or something maybe for detentions and things but I'm not sure if it'd work or if it's even a good idea.

I don't know what I'm supposed to think. Well no I know what I'm supposed to think but I don't like thinking it.

They don't think I can handle myself with my housemates. If I couldn't then I wouldn't've joined the IS in the first place. I mean, I remember from fifth year that no one liked them then and everyone thought they were the worst, so why would I try to be a part of it if it was just going to make everyone hate me and then have them not even think I can handle it either?

Lillian's right. We just need to prove that we're good at this. Even if it makes everyone else hate us in the process. But it's safer. And I am good at this. I just want THEM to know that I'm good at this because being left out bites.

Unless you count what happened to Stephen last night and Theodore today but at least Andrew Kirke doesn't have a dad who's a Death Eater.

And the IS gets ice cream and I like ice cream.

Mum is right. Magic is so fucking scary.

I don't want to spend the rest of eternity as a footstool.



Holy moses maybe that's why the Carrows were talking about the Ottomans biting. Holy shit.

Anybody happen to have an extra set of dress robes?

Can you do me a favor?

You guys think with these tree things we're gonna get shit for stuff our parents might've done that we don't even know about? Like what if it turns out my Da was some prat that gave Carrow a swirly or something when they were in school & they're getting their revenge?